I always tend to distance myself from those whom I become close to. I think someway throughout the friendship I’d realise that I’m not good enough and so I take a step back. I’m scared, you know? They say that liking someone isn’t hard but it’s like I’m always on my tippy toes, constantly scared that the person will wake up and realise that I’m not, and will never be the person whom they are looking for. I’m not like them, I’m angry and agressive, I hate not only myself but pretty much everything around me. There have been so many times where I’ve distanced myself from a person then realise how much i actually miss them afterwards. Long talks, shoulders to lean on. I hate myself for it, but I can’t help it. I’d prefer not like someone as much rather than like them so much, and be let down.
(Source: huongry)
